Last week was a roller coaster ride for me. I finally decided to retract my resignation to the delight of my managers. I also stopped my pending job applications in the outside world of audit. After weighing the pros and cons of my current situation, personal life, health status, and future career, I decided to remain as part of our firm.

With high hopes for another audit season, my spirit sagged down by the consequences of my retraction of my resignation. First, the deliberation of the employees was completed prior to my decision to retract. As a result I was not included in the list and I didn’t expect my promotion for this year. As a consolation, my effort during the prior audit season was still considered, making it as a basis for my salary increase (at least di ba? Thank you pa rin!).

Sayang!

I am expecting this kind of expression and comment from all the people around me. Deep inside, I feel a little bit sad about it (tao lang po, me damdamin din). In this world, who will hate or despair a promotion? No one, no one no wa- ha-ha-a-aan, sensya na epekto ng background music ni Alicia Keys. Almost all of us want to be promoted. It took me 24 hours ( ehem ehem excuse me po!) before accepting my situation. I accepted it with all my hearts (do I sound like a Tupperware here? lol!). It’s like I am just about to take a bitter pill, as I accept my current status. I know I need this kind of bad situation to test my character. I also need this kind of negative motivation to check how far will I dare to give to my work, colleagues, and to the firm.

Kudos to all my batchmates who were promoted! I welcome you all to the world of “Seniorship”. Sa wakas Seniors na tayong lahat! I would like to congratulate as well all my staffs who got promoted! Naks naman one step higher na kayo! Maraming magpapapizza sa akin! Yahooo!!! Eto naman ang kasiyahan ng hindi napromote, ako ang ititreat and take note ang dami nilang magtitreat.

I was also informed that my request for “extended leave” was also being considered by the bosses. I plan to take a break from audit, to seek medical attention for my lingering back pain, and take my time to lose some fats in my body. Marami pa akong gustong gawin during  the break, I want to review for a certification exam, write a book, build a small business venture at home as in marami pang ideas running into my mind. Pero the greatest thing I am thinking right now is, gusto ko pagbalik ko sa audit, healthy na ulit ako. Ready for another full-pack action. I want to go back with the same enthusiasm I had during my first year in audit. Na-burn-out ako during the prior audit season. Gusto ko pagbalik ko kaya ko na ulit makipagsabayan sa puyat, stress and pressures ng audit. All I need is to recharge my batteries.

After the promotion day in our office, I received a call from the company I am currently applying. The headhunter (the agency who referred me) said I was highly considered by the company whom I have my pending application. Apparently they were still on selection process. Since I already gave my word that I will stay for another season, I declined the opportunity to work with the new company. Before I ended my conversation with the headhunter, I endorsed one of my colleagues who also filed his resignation. Since wala pa syang tawag from his applications, I offered to him the job position. Looks like he has a better future there dahil within the week his interviews were completed. He is now waiting for the job offer. Sana makuha sya at para me magpapizza ulit sa akin.

Do I feel bitter again from retracting my resignation when a new company calls for my service? Of course, medyo naramdaman ko ulit ang ampalaya. Maybe I am living my life against the flow of the world. I think I am swimming against the current. My compass says I should head north but the way I continue my life, I am moving to the south. Kontra-tiempo ika nga.

This is my share of my roller coaster ride. I know I don’t need to compare myself to others because other people have their own share of bumpy rides. Some of them have even worst events in their life. Who am I to complain? Even our country is on its bumpy road right now after the hostage incident.  Most of the time we complain and even pinpoint to people or event why we have these awful moments in our life. It is so easy to complain when we deal with the little bumps and hits in life.

Once again acceptance is the only key during this kind of dark days, though it is not easy. It takes time. While writing this one, I could say I am on my final lap on my way to recovery. Now, all things are clearer for me. I have accepted my situation. And I know there is bright future ahead of me.

Just like a roller coaster ride, all the twirls, bumps, and strides of my ride are fast and temporary. For as long as my seatbelt is tight I know I will be ok.  

 This too shall pass.

Looking Forward,

Dorm Boy

PS1: Last week my friends from the dorm in Baguio had a mini-reunion. It was a wonderful moment celebrating our friendship. Click here and read our stories. 

PS2: Want to learn how to save and improve your finances. Meet Boy Waldas and check his first step on how to save. Click here.